Living with hep c: stream of consciousness

I am free when I am hoop dancing. I let go. I've worked hard to reach the level of hoop dance I flow with now and I am always longing for more flow. That is my nature, it stays in a state of longing, I'm in love with life, I have my reason for longing, life feels good inside of music and hoops, it feels good when the hoops are all over my body, I pop them with elbows, knees and my feet and yes of course my thighs and my ass. Hoop Dancing can be one bad ass discipline depending on where you want to take it or how far you will allow it to take you. The hoops are my partners, we are meeting each others demands. We find it a wonderfully harmonious relationship.

Lost in my hoops I know myself because I can feel myself. I am deeply grateful for every person of any age and they are all ages that take the time to ask me questions, to enjoy my flow as the follow it with their eyes. If I get a good vibe going from my audience then I really demand a lot from myself to make them smile. I want to wow them, we all want to wow someone with something, I have my hoops and flow.

If I feel sad or unhappy, I grab my hoops and head for nature. I know that once I am in the hoops or even have my hands on them that I am about to connect with what is eternal in life. Its a stream of energy that has manifest into many images. Here on the island those images are rich in color, smell, site and sound. I have taught myself to bend over backwards so far that I can see the clouds drift above me while looking at the beach and ocean upside down and it makes blood rush to brain and joy bust out from my lips and a smile stretches not only across my lips but through the core of my being and out of my eyes. In this position, I am a bouncing wave of force and beauty or that is how I feel and its how we feel about ourselves that matters to us. 

I will work for it, I am on the beach 10 to 14 hours a week hoop dancing. I'm a slow learner, my advantage is that I am impatient, I love pushing myself to get somewhere especially when it feels so good. I just keep at it, its all in the practice. Its that simple. Some will spin well the first time while others of us will work to get to every new experience until we too just feel "the flow" and its in us and we are in it. At this juncture, you can assume you've got a new beautiful self on your hands to enjoy.

Aloha